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I Give In
written by SuperBob07:27 AM 8/14/04| The urge is calling me...So loud and so strong...It's always like this when no one's around...But I said I wouldn't do this anymore...I thought I had finally settled the score..then I realize who I am...I'm the one that lied through out her years...I'm the one that cried three times today...Like hell I can handle any of this...This is something I'll never miss...But I don't want to give in and just give like this...I was always stronger when I lied to be bliss...But hey...It's alright...I can just keep it a secret...Why will he have to know that I've endulged in pain?....I could hold it back...And never say a word...Not like he'll ever count all my scars...Then realize I have one more than I should....or many many more...If i do go back and do it now...there no way in hell I would stop one....The blood would flow so free and nice...I'd finally be able to sleep this night...But I'd feel like shit with the guilt so strong...Oh how I wish I wasn't so wrong...Wrong aobut everything from the start of my life...When I pretended I lived without strife...But now it claws its way into my head...And makes itself cozy in my mind's bed...I have no control over the thoughts that attack me...It's just something I'll one day have to learn how to flee....But until then what is it I should do?...Should I cut myself one scar or how many more than two?....I need to feel the horrors rush out...But in a few days I would have over come this bout.... |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
i really think i'm caving in the whole no more self mutilation thing....its not such a bad thing right?....like it makes me happier thats what matters?
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| » Comments / Feedback | by sugarhigh (8-14-2004 - 07:47 AM)
| hmm... sounds depressing. depressing, but good. deep. |
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